boneyard trees

2002-08-25 [ 11:36 pm ]
I've got nothing.

I mean that in several different ways... I'm at the point in my life where born again Christians found Christ. Well, I already sort of know Christ, so I'm okay.

Nevertheless, the present is hollow, the past is nothing but shadows. The future is wide open, a big yawning chasm. Am I ready to jump? Oh, hell yes.

I've got a motivation problem sometimes, though, and that could be my failing. I just have to make sure I stay sociable and active.

So far I have been doing okay with the latter. No matter how hard it has been, I have been eating really quite well, and I exercise physically or spiritually as much as I can.

It's the former that is the problem right now. I am shy and sensitive, really. The bravado I present under the guise of this site is just a pose. I am generally not all in-your-face and auto-witty. I am only like that with people whom I know I won't offend.

This year I think I am really going to try and be myself at all times. I am going to try and get out there, and talk to people, and if they like me, that's great, and if they don't, then sucks to them. They are the ones who are missing out.

Because I am a wonderful person! If you don't want me, then you lose!

People like Chad are going to be remiss to find a replacement for me in their lives... I am not happy about that, because I will miss them, and in some cases already really do.

So it goes.

photo by: kam2k