christ! i'm out of my mind.

2002-07-26 [ 02:20 am ]
It's hard for me not to be paranoid these days. I have so much that is yet undetermined for next year, and it is quite easy to believe that it's all going to turn to shit.

First thing is housing, stupid stupid housing. Well, I guess that is going okay, I just want it over with.

Second thing is school. I have yet to register in my third year courses, when I know the rest of UWO has. I mean, hopefully they will take pity on me (ooh, that reminds me, I want to download a Stabbing Westward song...)

Whew. For about eight seconds there, for some reason, I just felt super, super drunk. That was nice... Ah... I long for the days when this website had the mantra of "why can't I not be sober?". Sort of, anyway.

The third thing is that I am lonely, and everybody's away. Christ, I get a call from Maggie in Port Elgin today... Guess who she saw there? Chad! Yeah, thanks for phoning. Two of my best friends are away together, and they're not even together. Yeah, wish I was there, maybe.

I then had a conversation with Scott from his loft in Whistler. Jesus. Jee-zus!

A year ago tonight, I would have been skipping home drunk from the local bar, after a night of serious carousing. When I got home, I would dance a strange jig. A year ago next week, I will have been preparing to drive out east, in the trip that invariably changed my life. Sigh... there is nothing like that, really this summer. Everything is so damn practical.

Even my pictures are lacking.