smoke & ashes

2002-07-18 [ 02:05 am ]
Is this enough? I wonder if I am missing something, when it comes to personally cataloguing my life. If we all up and vanished, would the invaders of the future read my site, and really know who I was, what I had to offer?

How do you people see me, I wonder, those of you who rarely get a chance to speak to me in person? I know this won't elicit any response, because you are all lazy and/or shy, but I ask anyhow.

I am thinking a little bit about the apocalypse... is it really that far off? Think of how much of this world has become unatural, someday Mother Earth is just going to revolt. The oceans will boil over, the sky will melt away like burning film. The ground will break open underneath skyscrapers which fall like a ribcage opens to expose a beating heart. The CN Tower will barely rise out of the ocean like some buoy marking shallow waters.

I think the future is going to be like listening to Radiohead's Fake Plastic Trees over and over again. Kind of dark, and depressing, but soaring at the same time, and with enough conviction to make you transcend all of that shit. Or maybe that's what I am doing right now. I am everywhere through time tonight.

Nostalgia is a virus, yet future planning seems futile. It's all going to end someday anyway, so let's just make the best of right now, and ride the wave where it takes us...

This reminds me too much of the winter... Except that I am sober and clear headed somewhat. Shit! Everything reminds me of something. There are no new experiences...

photo by: me or fishy, i don't remember